What's been happening? Uni, commerce camp, work, and that's probably it in a nutshell.
Camp was good.. and bad. Facebook tells all, and the photos pretty much gives an overall picture. Met a lot of people, and had a major d&m with Reema, my dear primary school curry :) I miss just pouring out my heart, willingly, to people I know who will not laugh at me for being just me.

Uni's like, this huge masquerade. Everyone has their secrets, and if someone ends up finding out about them, then bye bye to your rep and integrity. You're the next big joke in town, and there's absolutely nothing you can do about it. Everyone makes their mistakes, everyone has things they regret. Is that really some big fat joke? Just because you're not the one exposed. And besides, no-one knows anyone, not for who they really are. Why pass judgement like that?

I miss my bitches, my true bitches. Yes, Davo, Bon and Em, I'm talking to you three. Lol. I miss seeing you guys every day, laughing every day about anything, and sharing the moments with you all. Everything was so simple. We were all so simple. Now things are thrown at us, and we just have to tank it all. I felt so much more real with you guys. Saying what I wanted to say, thinking what I wanted to think. Uni's eating me away. The workload, the constant need to be good enough for the whole environment, the unfamiliar faces, the laughs, the glares.

I just wish there was that someone out there, who can just tell me "it's okay." Someone who genuinely knows and supports who I really am.

So another weekly update.
Lol, everyone doesn't bother blogging nomore. And I'm getting mroe and more bored as I procrastinate and have nothing better to do other than facebook - and even that isn't as entertaining as it used to be.

Uni's gradually getting better, in the social sense. Making friends isn't as random nomore, even though lectures are still the hardest place to find someone new. The people I met in tutes before aren't as afraid of talking, and everything seems to be flowing on quite smoothly. Had my first two asssessments last week: for QMA and Japanese. Happy to say I scored a whopping 9/10 for my first quiz; pity it's only a 2% weighting. Lol. So I scored 1.8% :) Japanese wasn't as bad as I thought, and for now, I think I made 3 mistakes? Oh welps, that was a 10% weighting though, so oh whatever.

Met up with Boneface on Thursday at Broadway and had cold tortellini from some Italian stall in the food court. Twas good catching up, on random things, and just spending quality time with people I love.

Scored a job at Taverner Research which is basically telemarketing, minus the marketing part, because it's socio-attitudinal research that benefits the community. It's actually quite interesting listening to people's responses to smoking and their thoughts. Got a lady who told me her annual income was "fuck all" and was surprised they didn't have that as an option. So I just ticked "under 40 000" for her. Lol. Oh, and another lady told me she was Aborigine, but was white, because the definition of Aborigine is "a native to Australia." And since she was born in Australia, she's Aboriginal. So I told her okay, i'll put that down as "other" and write down what you said, but just ticked no. She might've told me off if I said she wasn't Aboriginal. Weird people, but quite entertaining. And there's a cute white boy who I met at training and took the first shift with me. We turned to each other after each interview we did, and laughed at the responses. So the 7 hour shift almost flew by on the Saturday.

So my life at the moment is just Uni, trying to get all the work done on time, DANCEKOOL and the job. Everyone's complaining how the balance is so hard, and I'm gonna be cool, and complain about it too. The days always just fly by, and you look back and regret you spent the last night on MSN doing absolutely nothing. Things start piling, and you realise there's nothing you can do, but feel sorry for yourself. Oh welps.

And just came back from a driving session with my mum. Oh Em GEE. I can't bloody take that woman. She tells me to do absolutely EVERYTHING. I'm observing, or checking traffic, but she tells me to hurry up and turn right already, and when I'm about to enter the street, she tells me to BRAKEEEEEE cos there was a pedestrian and tells me off for not looking properly. LIKE HELL WOMAN! I WAS LOOKING AND YOU TELL ME TO GO, SO I GO, AND THEN YOU TELL ME TO BRAKE. The instructor said my judgement is shit, but I wonder why, it's cos my bloody mother sticks her head in the way while I'm trying to look, and tells me what to do the whole time. And almost screams every time I turn just a tad bit faster. I can just tell when I get my P's, she won't let me take the car by myself, because there'll be no "experienced driver" next to me to guide me. Pffts, just cos I don't wanna define CHINESE LADY behind the wheel. She needs to take a dozen chill pills, and SO DO I thanks to that. GRRRRR.

And you. I'm getting there, pretty much there already. And before I can absolutely just let go, all I wanted was for you to clear everything up; absolutely everything. But you couldn't even do that. And it's stupid how I still get disappointed/shocked every time you do this to me; I should be used to it by now, but I give you too much benefit of the doubt. I still want to believe you're not as low as you really are, but you just are. Don't think I'm gonna keep hanging there, holding on, waiting for you, because I've been there done that. Goodbye.